Blog Topics and Elephants

When I sit down to post on this blog, sometimes I have a topic, although other times like now, I do not. Yesterday, I wrote an article, but decided that it was too long for a blog and I'd rambled too much. So, I hit delete and gave it up for the day. Many times I think of a subject I'd like to address, but realize that if I post it, the topic may stir up problems for me with some of my readers. Not that I have that many readers, but I have just enough that if my context is any way controversial, it could get back to others who would not understand. I'd be told to "be careful what you put in print". Does that qualify as censorship? I suppose it might, but just on my part, after all, I am my own editor. However, if I were a gutsy writer, a bold reporter, I would not censor myself because it is my writing, my point of view and anyone that has a problem with it should just get over it. Yeah!! or maybe not. Sorry about that, I didn't mean to get carried away.

Although there is a side of me that wants to tell people to take a hike or lay off, when faced with the opportunity, I shy away. Well, that is, most of the time. I have told a person face to face that I didn't like the way he was talking to me. Although, that was not writing and he was the protagonist, not me. Hmmm... well lets just say that I've written from the protagonist point of view and heard about it from others who were "concerned" about me. Once I wrote what I thought to be an analogy...or was it a metaphor? (I get those mixed up.) It was written because of a situation that had upset me at our church. I really thought I'd camouflaged it pretty well. Besides, who reads this blog? No one. I found out differently when a friend called to meet her at Starbucks. Seems some church person had read my blog and was afraid that we were leaving the church. I was surprised and amazed that someone read the post much less would care enough about what I'd written. Moreover, sending a friend to talk to me about what I had written was a real eye-opener. People really do read this blog!

Anyway, this is one of those post about nothing in particular because if I write about topics on my mind, it may not set well with some friends who apparently do read this blog and would get their feathers ruffled. I truly don't want to offend anyone. That is the truth, too. I also don't want any of them to think ill of me either. However, it would sure be freeing to be able to say what is really on my mind. To be able to discuss that big gray elephant standing in the middle of the church aisle. You see it, don't you? Well, maybe you aren't at my church, but trust me, there's one there. He stands there every time we meet and no one ever seems to notice him, especially, the elephant keepers who walk around him every time they were in the aisle. Although, there has been a whisper or two that I'm sure was someone wondering about the elephant, no one has had the presence to announce, "there is an elephant in the aisle and this house is no place for such a thing." Maybe one day some newcomer who doesn't know any better, will ask about that big gray elephant standing in the middle of the aisle and "why isn't someone doing something to get him out". When that day comes, a meeting will be called, there will be a discussion, maybe even an disagreement (that's the part I don't like), but eventually, hopefully, the elephant will be gone. When it's out, we'll clean up the aisle so we can worship free of distractions, free of barriers, free of the questions surrounding the elephant, and free of the dominating smell of the beast's presence that everyone seemed to ignore.

Sorry, this wasn't much of a post today. I just couldn't think of a topic. Maybe next time I write, I'll have more of an idea about what to write.

Thanks for reading, whoever you are.